I’ve been struggling to post because of how my life is so I’m hoping that posting about my life helps. It’s tricky because I’m not free to be totally open, other people are involved, but I’ll see what I can do.

I’m currently separated from my wife. We’ve drifted apart and something triggered our first fight. That led to us both doing therapy work on ourselves while things are figured out. I feel some confidence about what I need to change though and am working very hard to be worth it. It’s almost been a year. I hope she finds what she needs.

I’m living with my parents while I do my part. Sleeping on a couch with a TV on right next to me the rest of the time. I am seriously grateful to them for this. Especially since I’d been pressing them very hard to discuss some serious stuff they don’t want to. That’s all on hold while I’m in their house of course, this is their space. Our politics are opposed, I still love them though. I get to save money despite the difficulties. I’ve earned my place by catching 74 mice in their house. All caught live and released in a local park. Seriously.

I had to release them on weekends and this is what they do when they get more comfortable, stare at OUTSIDE. Or stare at one while it tries to jump out to learn. Smart. And cute. One even had babies and I raised them up to a releasing age. They still wanted OUT despite never having been OUT. I hope it’s worth it.

My best trap was a dog biscuit box with a cereal box inside and a plastic bag in that with dog food and peanut butter. I hear them, I cover the hole, I dump them into a tub. Easy.

Outside of therapy work and some games I’m having a hard time finding the energy to do much. I don’t have any meat space friends. I’m pretty isolated. I’m trying to get into situations where friends can be made, meetups and such, but it’s slow going. I have really severe social anxiety due to a lot of factors that I would rather do in a separate post. In short I didn’t get shown how to make friends, learned to distrust and fear people, and bullying in school with no friends in school (the tourette’s). I didn’t fully appreciate just how avoidant I was until after my attempt at graduate school, it never occurred to me to join professional groups for example. This is hard to change in my late 40s. But I’m working on it. A statistic in the loneliness epidemic.

I hear it gets harder for everyone to make friends as they get older. I wonder why that is. You’d think that because things get easier as you get age and experience it would happen here too. But no, many of us are separated in our way.

I may at least get off of the couch soon, my parents are emptying an extra room they were storing things in. That will help. And then maybe I can bring some stuff from the apartment, I’ve had an urge to play some Halo. My wife is nice about that part. If I want my stuff I can get my stuff.

I just wish I could do more of what I used to do politically. But I’m missing a balance in my life that prevents the rage and passion from consuming me. It’s ok to just work on myself when that’s what I need to do though.

This all came to mind while watching this video by Anton Petrov.

It’s a great video about the group of archaea that we seem to be descended from, in part. Look at those cellular appendages!

To summarize life, cellular life comes in 3 major groups: bacteria, archaea, and eukarya. The first 2 are single celled and the last one can be single or multicellular. We are eukaryotes.

What are eukaryotes?

The way we talk about this bugs me. An archaea engulfed a bacteria and the bacteria became modern mitochondria as the endosymbiotic theory goes. From there complex membrane systems evolved like the nuclear membrane and the endoplasmic reticulum. But when you look at the circular genome in the mitochondria it’s tiny, most of the genes for everything including mitochondrial ribosomes have moved to the nuclear genome.

We are bacterial-archaeal composites. The 2 earliest branches of the tree of life combined into the 3rd. We are just as evolved from an archaea as we are a bacteria. Identifying with the outside membrane and main genome is a kind of bias. We are both.

What was the nature of the evolution of 1 group of cells to 2?

Since there is evidence that the chemistry of alkaline hydrothermal vents is involved in the evolution of life, I wonder how that relates to the evolution of 2 major groups of cells before eukarya showed up? Archaea are extremophiles. They seem to like things like high temperature systems and other extreme conditions. Since the alkaline vents are like internal cellular chemistry cellular life likely evolved there first. But there are 2 kinds of hydrothermal vent systems, alkaline and magmatic.

I’m of the view that this life, maybe bacteria, then seeded the magmatic hydrothermal vents which resulted in archaea as the populations became separate. The 2 kinds of vents is what makes sense to me as a means of evolving bacteria and archaea and eventually the 2 met again allowing for eukarya.

Maybe I’m wrong but it’s an interesting thought.

Edited.

I live in Tucson and I’m in the process of looking for a board game meetup, but I play lots of games including video games. If anyone in Tucson who reads this blog or other FTB blogs wants another player for games I’d love to be considered.

After posting I realized I wasn’t sure if my email was available on my site so if anyone has room for another gamer my email is [email protected]

Somehow this game hit a spot for me, and I want to dissect it. Not the spot since I’m still looking for the perfect something on Android (if it featured some match 3 play that would help). But it’s nice overall, something about helping other people fight monsters. But the formula breaks down a bit when I think about it, or overthink it as some might say. But I think it’s valid to look at games like this even while enjoying them.

Dungeon Village 2 is a town building game with a town space and an outside battle space.

As you improve your village more people are attracted to it and go outside to fight monsters. They all get the traditional RPG improvement mechanics where they get experience and gold, level up, and buy themselves equipment in the weapon, armor, and accessory shops in the village. You can gift them equipment which is much more efficient. Then they go back out and do it some more. They also get knocked out instead of dying and becoming coins for the monsters, and will rush one another to the inn to rest up. Bosses will also show up periodically.

You get to build the town, including houses for people who become citizens instead of visitors (and they pay taxes). Hire people for quests (dungeons or concentrations of monsters), meet requirements for upgrading towns, hold special events that increase stats or town popularity,  as well as meet requirements for contests and special town visitors (they spend more money mostly).

The monsters are sentient, they talk. This is where things get weird for me. There’s this unstated history of conflict where these creatures are constantly fighting towns and keep coming back. Why?

If you have a monster tamer in a group for a quest there’s a chance a monster will be impressed with you defeating them and ask to join you. You can assign them to a fighter who forms a “partnership” (suggesting a kind of equal status) with the monster and they then go out  together to fight the former allies of the monster. When the monster’s happiness is high enough it lets the fighter ride it into battle. Monsters without a partner live at the monster farm. I guess monster civilization isn’t good.

Speaking of monster civilization what’s with the gold you get? This suggests monster economics upon defeat, or some kind of evolution where flesh becomes metal on death. Strange stuff.

While this could be a bit overthinky to this point (I do wonder about what we feed into culturally though) the next bit definitely isn’t. Trigger warning for racism.

Sorry for the volume slider but this is the boss Afrokin. An apparent demonesque humanoid wearing animal skins with an afro. This is an insulting connection between people who have afros (people of African descent) and apparent barbarity and being a monster.

After the character says the above dialog they say “Let’s get down to business. I’m going to give you a painful lesson in fashion sense. My pants are stylish, comfortable, superior! There’s no way I’m going to lose while I’m wearing these!” When they lose they say “Not bad but the way I see it I only lost to myself, not you!”

This is all sorts of disturbing and doesn’t belong in any video game.

When I’m done with this game I’d like to find something similar on Android. Flawed but fun outside of the racism and apparent beating of monsters into joining you instead of finding a way to live together without conflict. If any of you have a suggestion for me about a similar game on Android I’d love to see it.

This feels like the most sensitive post I’ve ever made. If I could do something better I’m happy to consider it.

There are some fascinating mice I’ve wanted to post about. Mice in which the TrpC2 gene has been deleted (TrpC2-/-, +/- is heterozygous). First I need to do a little set up.

Humans and Trp2C.

It’s about most of the rest of vertebrates vs. “old world” primates (parvorder Catarrhini). The old world primates include gibbons and great apes like us, and they lack a vomeronasal organ and accessory olfactory system as I mentioned in the other post some posts ago. So no pheromone system and other things that this system did for us. But I believe the evolutionary event of TrpC2 wreckage in human ancestors had a significant effect on us for better and worse.

And in that other post I pointed out how the accessory olfactory system and pheromones themselves are devoted to a range of behaviors beyond mating. Going into predator and prey or food, and a large range of information about your own kind like age, sex, relatedness, health status and more. Whole information channels now missing, but with still existing brain hardware downstream from that olfactory system.

Trp2C is a cation channel protein, “transient receptor potential 2C” (Ca2+, Na+). It is located in the same part of vomeronasal sensory neurons as the vomeronasal olfactory receptors and is part of the signalling system that activates the neuron during signal transduction. In humans this is a pseudogene, it contains a bunch of extra termination codons that severely truncate the protein making it non-functional. It’s an obvious experiment to delete the gene in a model organism like the mouse and see what happens and so some scientists did that.

Before I introduce the mice I want to emphasize that humans have a whole evolutionary history that includes other accessory olfactory pseudogenes, and other changes I think of as “things sandwiched between stimulus and impulse”. These mice are creatures we made in a lab without the 25-40 million years of extra evolution since we lost our Trp2C. There will be implications for good and bad things.

The TrpC2 deletion mice.

These mice lose their social aggression for one thing. They’ll defend themselves if attacked but don’t do any attacking themselves. Males stop fightng intruder males. Females stop fighting intruder males during lactation. Males stop being aggressive towards juveniles. They don’t seem to form dominance hierarchies (as measured by urine marking patterns, the dominant mouse gets to go everywhere, everyone else goes in a corner). TRICK or TRP? What Trpc2−/− mice tell us about vomeronasal organ mediated innate behaviors. Yu 2015

Females don’t engage in nest building as often and don’t nurse as often, but offspring numbers are the same and they have similar body weight so maybe they nurse more effectively. Trpc2 gene impacts on maternal aggression, accessory olfactory bulb anatomy and brain activity. Hasen 2009.

Males care for offspring more, though not to the level of females. Vomeronasal signal deficiency enhances parental behavior in socially isolated male mice. Orikasa 2017

Examples of lost behaviors? TrpC2-/- mice can’t detect sick mice anymore for one thing. Sensing and avoiding sick conspecifics requires Gαi2+ vomeronasal neurons. Weiss 2023.

And then there’s sexual behavior.

This paper describes the big ideas. The De-Scent of Sexuality: Did Loss of a Pheromone Signaling Protein Permit the Evolution of Same-Sex Sexual Behavior in Primates? Pfau 2021.

The first thing to mention is that all of these behaviors were already present at low levels in wild type mice (as they are in primates with an accessory olfactory system). These studies describe increases in rates of various behaviors. The same goes for the previous behavior but I wanted to make the point here. There’s no “gay gene” here since the same sex behavior was already there. It’s more like existing sex specific behaviors increased rates and spread out to both sides once they lost olfactory control.

Both male and female TrpC2-/- mice will mount males or females during intruder experiments instead of fighting. At other times too but this was the really noteworthy experiment since fighting an intruder is the typical response of the non-mutant mice.

It gets more detailed. Female TrpC2-/- mice also scent mark like males, vocalize like males, engage in exploratory anogenital sniffing like males (which males usually do during courtship), and they do this thing where they lift up the other mouse’s rump with their nose like males. The behavior between the male and female TrpC2-/- mice get described differently in the literature early on with the male mice merely engaging in same sex behavior but the females show “male type sexual behaviors”. A functional circuit underlying male sexual behaviour in the female mouse brain. Kimchi 2007.

The tough subject, the bad one.

Trigger warning: implications about child sexual abuse.

A final sexual characteristic of the TrpC2-/- mice is they no longer respond to a protein secreted from juveniles that suppresses such behavior (ESP22). These mice were used in the following paper to study this phenomenon. A juvenile mouse pheromone inhibits sexual behaviour through the vomeronasal system. Ferrero 2013. These mice express sexual behavior towards juveniles at higher rates than wild type mice. This is the tough subject because it’s explanatory of problems we’re dealing with as a society, just as the other observations are explanatory of things that aren’t problems because of consent and similar developmental stages between individuals.

This is explanatory for why should such things even exist. It’s in the same box as murder, it’s possible for some of us, but implicitly harmful. A violation of power. I’m of the opinion that in order to control ourselves as a group it helps to understand ourselves as a group and I believe these mice help there.

Social cognitive regions of human association cortex are selectively connected to the amygdala.

This paper is neat in a lot of ways. On one level they repeat and confirm other work at higher resolution (7 Tesla MRI instead of 3 Tesla). On another level did you know the Default Mode Network (DMN) has substructure? And overlaps with Theory of Mind brain networks?

The DMN is the part of the brain that is active when we aren’t paying attention to anything externally, daydreaming, introspecting…the paper also points out that the same regions also involve Theory of Mind, autobiographical memory, self-oriented thought, “episodic projection” (EP, thinking about the past or future), and mental scene construction.

But it turns out that there’s evidence that some of the above in the DMN use slightly different regions for Theory of Mind vs. EP (anterior vs. posterior regions of the parietal lobe). These putatively separate parts of the DMN were called DM-A (EP and mental scene construction) and DM-B (Theory of Mind).

They not only confirmed that work, they had a high enough resolution to look at the amygdala and other subcortical regions. In fact DN-B and Theory of Mind seems to involve the amygdala basolateral (primary and secondary reinforcement), accessory basal (maybe generalized feelings to me), lateral (sensory input from non-olfactory senses), and medial (innate behavior) nuclei. DN-A did not activate the amygdala.

So our amygdalae are active even when not outwardly focused, or necessarily feeling intense, at least for Theory of Mind tasks. I like any paper that adds structure to how the mind and the brain intersect. Understanding how our thoughts are shaped.

Finally I’m going to stop predicting what I’m going to try to post next. My mind is a mess.

I’m having big motivation issues and it’s making it harder to mentally assemble my next post so I thought I would do my reading list and share a couple of the things I want to work into the post. Hopefully this will jog things around. The stir crazy always comes back, it’s taking its time this time.

Understanding Emotions: Origins and Roles of the Amygdala.

In the last 2 years I did a binge on the amygdala in general to get a good feel for that part of the brain. It works as a “cognitive insertion point” which I think of as a place where you can draw on individual experiences to discuss a part of the brain. The amygdala receives and processes objects, and inserts direction and intensity of feelings into consciousness as well as a bunch of instructions for movement. It’s a “system 1” level structure as it requires no effort, you just feel it. A “system 2” structure is involved in effort in consciousness.

Novel Perspectives on the Development of the Amygdala in Rodents.

I finally decided to get more developmental concepts internalized. A flesh tube becomes brain parts and some of those parts migrate to make new brain parts. The amygdala is an “interface structure” and made from lots of meat that wandered in from elsewhere and sits next to things that also wandered in from elsewhere.

Development and function of the medial amygdala.

I paid particular attention to the central amygdala when I did my binge (CE or CeA). Over 90 links to articles on just that region. It’s the output subnuclei of the amygdala. The medial nucleus (ME or MeA) outputs to the CE and seems to be a junction between the senses and behavior. Stimulation of the CE produces strong salience (attention) to the point that rats will chew at an electrode that shocks them and so this nuclei features in addiction research. The ME when stimulated produces many kinds of behavior. (And in my last post I pointed out the posterior cortical nuclei seem to create feelings).

Organization of neural circuits underlying social behavior: a consideration of the medial amygdala.

Same thing but with a social behavior focus. Oxytocin discussion and how to tease apart the sensory from behavior parts of this nucleus. Since body maps are involved in movement maybe there’s a sensory body component that works with cuss words?

TRICK or TRP? What Trpc2−/− mice tell us about vomeronasal organ mediated innate behaviors.

Related to my last post. TrpC2 is a gene used in the vomeronasal organ and makes the accessory olfactory bulb severely reduced when deleted in mice. It also eliminates social aggression and effectively makes them pansexual. Female mice even scent mark like males in addition to mounting both sexes and thrusting away. The human TrpC2 is a pseudogene.

I want to post about these mice but I want to read more about a surgical counterpart, VNX mice with surgically removed vomeronasal organs.

This is an outline of how the stream of consciousness, feelings, and emotions seems to relate as a continuous looping process. And how attention can be moved around in that stream. We experience the world as continuously cycling and updating networks of neurons.

Emotions seems to come in approach-hold-withdraw kinds (or attraction/avoidance…), and fight-freeze-flight for an intensity spectrum. There is an emotional motor system that seems to govern approach and withdraw based on feeling. This feeds into what goes to the motor system proper.

What I want to do is remake this with the anatomy.

The next part came from some notes I took after reading about the structure of the autonomic nervous system. I’m trying to define and categorize all of the internal senses and feelings in preparation for finding them in the anatomy. If I missed any let me know! This should be things we all feel. It gets a bit repetitive as I’m looking at different ways of looking at the same thing, or just listing things to get them all.

Sense of Parts
Organs, muscles, bones, skin…

Sense of State
1) Sense of place in space: Proprioception
Special case: non-localized/soft/crude touch.

2) Sense of self-directed movement

Sense of Metabolic State
3) Sense of Nutritional State (hunger, specific hunger, thirst, starving…)
4) Sense of Digestive State (feeding, digesting, nausea, waste elimination)
5) Sense of Physical Integrity (Injury)
6) Sense of Chemical Integrity
Physiological (immune, O2, CO2, pH, pressure, temperature, hormonal…)
Arousal
Emotional state relative to (self, other beings, environment), feelings about.

External Senses
Smell
Vision
Hearing
Taste
Touch
Rotation
Acceleration, movement, and balance

Internal Senses
Internal parts: Introceception
Visceroception: sense of organs and muscles

Position and movement of parts: proprioception

Internal state: autonomic sense
Hunger
Specific Hunger
Thirst
Digestive distress
Waste elimination
Injury
Alertness/arousal and changes to (social hunger)
Heart rate, respiration,
O2, CO2, pH
Temperature
Immune system status
Emotional state relative to X

In meat space I don’t do anything science related professionally. I wish I did. And this post is a request for employment advice. My situation seems difficult and hopefully there’s a solution. I’ve few ideas of my own for reasons I’ll explain.

What I’m doing.
Right now I’m doing janitorial work for a large auto shop. I started doing janitorial work at a medical facility while I figured out what to do with myself. That turned into figuring out my mental health which took longer than I expected, and maybe I still need what I’m doing but I want to start thinking. It’s a good job. No complaints there. There’s a tired part of me willing to just do this until I fall apart. I am in my late 40’s.

What I used to do.
Back in the 90’s and early 2000’s I worked as an undergraduate research technician. I went from entomology, to ecology and evolutionary biology, to plant genetics (actually epigenetics). I got my name into a couple of papers and even some electron microscope images into the journal Science. Things seemed promising.

But something happened in graduate school. I encountered technical problems and while my work was good, I was less efficient than I needed to be. In retrospect I was spiraling into depression and didn’t see it. I also got diagnosed with ADHD (which I knew about but haven’t fully figured out) and tourette’s syndrome (TS). I faced a choice, do I figure this out while attempting to finish a PhD or not? Given how hard it can be to do that I decided to finish with a Master’s degree in cell and molecular biology and do technical work. But this was the late 2000’s.

The financial crisis at the time made it impossible for me to land more than a couple of interviews. And I couldn’t stay unemployed for long. I decided that since I was able to do teaching assistant work I’d work on a teaching degree while working as a substitute teacher. What I got was worse depression, new PTSD learned helplessness, and anhedonia. I broke.

During this time I also became a huge brain science nerd while I figured out what the tourette’s syndrome was all about. I think I’ve done pretty good there but nothing is on paper. No track record. I went to attempt mental health technician and then just health technician and I wasn’t compatible with that. That was when the health institution I was working for offered me a janitorial position since I was struggling and willing to work otherwise. That was about 6-7 years ago.

What I want to do, and some complications.
Part of me misses the technical work. But I have almost 2 decades without using my degree. That’s a pretty big hole and I don’t know what I could do to get a chance to see how my skills are. A part of me is anxiety ridden about the possibility from previous experience. It seems like academia is out, but other than remembering that lots of those jobs were supposed to be stepping stones for others to get ahead in an academic career I don’t know how to approach it or if I want to. Private industry is similar. I feel like something would be less likely there with the gap in using my education.

Other than technical work, I don’t know. I’ve been buried in understanding why I’m the way I am with mental health and don’t know what to think about. This is complicated by part of my issue being severe life long PTSD and social anxiety and avoidance. It’s hard enough to think about and work on basic socializing. In retrospect the social avoidance hurt me professionally more than I realized. And the source of the avoidance is very early childhood combined with some social neglect. I’m working on it but I’ve little but pain in my group feelings. I can go through the motions but that only gets you so far with creative thoughts.

I do like to talk about brain science. Posting about it is hard because it’s a different social act than meat space interaction that we have an older evolutionary relationship with than symbolic marks. The process of doing videos would be as uncomfortable, and I’d need a new skill set. My recent posts are things that have been in my head for awhile that I wanted to get out, thoughts chasing each other around. There are positive feelings there but they coexist with the ever present negativity.

And I’m basically an educated amateur and would have to be able to show what I’ve learned. I could become a source of information about what terms and diagnoses mean for people somehow. There has to be a need for what I know and could learn more with direction, but for the emotional recoiling from society.

My big passion was origin of life research and I don’t think that such a thing is possible now. Those molecular biology posts were some things I am passionate about and I wanted to get all of that out of my head. Those thoughts have been chasing each other around in my head for years but given the state of academic science and the nation and my age it seems daunting.

I think that’s it for now. I’m not sure what sort of professional I should talk to or what to consider. My next step is to look at what is in demand at the state employment sites. If I think of anything else to add I will update this post. Otherwise I’ve got some ideas about a post about how feelings, emotions, and consciousness works using the amygdala as an anchor.

I’ve spent a couple of decades reading about meat computers and I often think about where X human behavior fits best in the meat hardware. One of these bits of behavior is the very existence of things like contagious feelings, abstract feelings, cooties, bad words, profanity, vulgarity and similar.

In fact it seems inevitable that someone with tourette’s syndrome and a habitat of reading brain science would get here. Like I mentioned in the last post I don’t have that sensitivity. It was always what other people were sensitive to, and watching that very carefully, like an instinct. I think I found some things that get to this part of language via the olfactory system of all things, and a bunch of other things too. Bear with me, it’ll take some setup.

The senses and olfactory systems.

There are more than 5 senses but I’m sticking with the 5 traditional senses here. Every time we have a reaction to something we sense (think of a mosquito on your arm) that data gets processed into an object, sent to the thalamus, and then sent to the amygdala. Unless it’s the sense of smell. Olfaction is different. Olfaction gets priority access to the amygdala. This I think is related to smell as the oldest sense.

Here is a figure of the first sets of connections involving olfaction in the mouse. And most amphibians, reptiles and mammals. It’s that old, back to jawless vertebrates. I’ll be coming back to it. I adapted a figure from the following paper.

Subpopulations of Projection Neurons in the Olfactory Bulb. Imamura 2020

It’s a very ancient system. It’s also ancestrally a DUAL olfactory system. The olfactory epithelium (OE) and the main olfactory system (MOS) is one part (the green connections), and the vomeronasal organ (VNO) and the accessory olfactory system (AOS) is the other part (the red connections). You may have heard about humans and pheromone detection, if it were a thing, that’s the VNO. The VNO is a fluid pump for sampling of non-volitile substances that the OR can’t as easily sample through diffusion in air. Like hormones/pheromones, big, often non-polar molecules. Along with regular sniffing of orifices, faces and bodies in our ancestors.

The olfactory epithelium (OE) does smell in general, the VMO does non-volatile smell related to other beings including ones own kind. I’m emphasizing this because in a minority of creatures with olfactory systems, including humans, the accessory olfactory system is GONE.

The human vestigial accessory olfactory system.

We have a rudimentary VMO, there is a tiny remnant accessory olfactory nerve, and no accessory olfactory bulb (AOB). Our accessory olfactory genes are full of lots of pseudogenes (broken, mutated and not expressed). All of the vomeronasal receptors but 5 are pseudogenes, and those 5 are in the OE, not the VMO. The genomic basis of vomeronasal-mediated behaviour. Ibarra-Soria 2013

With that knowledge, one day while reading about the various behaviors the AOS seems to be able to manipulate I had a thought…what about the meat computer hardware just downstream from the AOB? Humans still have that! It occurred to me that these systems could be like feelings and behaviors cut off from olfactory control. A source of abstracted feelings and behaviors that we can use in language like abstract, non-literal language. Reminiscent of “phantom limbs” but much older.

Here’s the passage from the paper that stood out to me and gave me the thought.

“…pheromones are substances that are secreted by one individual and received by a second individual of the same species, in which they release a specific reaction, for example, a definite behavior or a developmental process” (Karlson and Lüscher 1959). Although this definition properly applies to many insect chemostimuli, it often falls short when applied to mammalian social chemosignals. Indeed, this issue has sparked some intense debate in the past (Doty 2010; Wyatt 2014).

Today, it is clear that the VNO is not exclusively dedicated to “pheromone detection.” For one, the VNO is critical for detection of predator odors, which are formally distinct from pheromones, and rather defined as “kairomones” (see below). Similarly, in snakes the VNO is important for prey detection (Halpern and Frumin 1979). Furthermore, contrary to the original definition of pheromones, many of the social chemosignals that robustly activate the AOS are not single compounds, but rather species-specific or individual-specific combinations of molecules in precise ratios (Wyatt 2009). Indeed, whereas pheromones are defined as intraspecies social signals that are “anonymous” with respect to the sender, many of the signals detected by the VNO serve to convey information about individuality (Hurst et al. 2001; Leinders-Zufall et al. 2004; Kaur et al. 2014; Ben-Shaul 2015). These include signature mixtures, which allow individuals or other social groups (e.g., families or colonies) to be recognized and distinguished. Finally, although pheromones, by strict definition, elicit a fixed and well-defined response, behavioral changes in response to many AOS signals can require learning and plasticity (Kaur et al. 2014; Xu et al. 2016), concepts that were long considered inapplicable to the AOS.

Signal Detection and Coding in the Accessory Olfactory System. Morhardt 2018

I’ll do this in order of information processing, from olfactory receptor, to olfactory bulbs, to feelings and actions related downstream brain meat.

Vomeronasal receptors, their ligands, and related feelings and behaviors.

A receptor is a protein that binds a specific molecule, its ligand. Here the ligands are odorants, and can be called vomerants for the ones that activate receptors in the VMO. There are 3 families of receptors typically found exclusively in the VMO. The interesting part is what binds them and the INNATE behavior effects that these ligands have (innate effects do not require previous experience).

Predators, and prey or food related vomerants.

Some creatures can leave scent trails that relate to preferred or safe food sources. Humans have a rich non-literal language for food and smells, things can “pass the smell test”. And humans have a language for other animals that we use as food sources, and unfortunately we treat one another as prey sometimes, grifters and “rubes” or “marks”.

Money might be in here as a “resource”. It’s not food but it has a sense of value from something.

First of all there chemicals related to predators and prey, or food in general. There is a chemical (2, 3, 5-trimethyl-3-thiazoline, TMT) from foxes that triggers freezing and flight in mice. Other predators can secrete other things too. Think about our language and how we can describe something as an external threat in a predatory sense. Rational or not. Something being “out to get you”, but not actually there at the moment.

One thing worth mentioning is how bigots, fascists and the like want to prey on other groups, but also have to spend so much time describing their prey as threats.

“Conspecific” related vomerants, peers at the species level.

Many of the following observations were taken from The Accessory Olfactory System: Innately Specialized or Microcosm of Mammalian Circuitry? Holy 2018

There are chemicals produced only by male mice that trigger aggression and territorial behavior in males and females (ESP1, ESP=exocrine gland-secreting peptide, from lacrimal glands). There are chemicals only in juveniles that suppress the adult sex drive (ESP22). There are chemicals only present when a female is ready to mate (sulfated estrogens). Our language is full of non-literal uses of male and female, there has to be brain hardware for “other kind in the same species” at the least. And “other kind” can be age and sex flavored. (There is ESP36, excreted by all females tested and a subset of male mice, I’ve no idea what to make of that but it’s curious.)

None of this is prescriptive, I’m about what can and has been done with our language, there’s plenty of room for how we get individually sensitive here. Think about “think of the children/women” language, directing feelings about threat and vulnerability there. Think about language involving sex, and just how sensitive society is to it. Some wring their hands at the mere technical mention of sex organs and actions. This place also suggests chemistry in caregivers that create feelings in offspring. Mother pigs secrete a substance that reduces aggression in their offspring while they are nursing. Pheromones, binding proteins, and olfactory systems in the pig (Sus scrofa): An updated review. Sankarganesh 2022.

There are whole sets of chemicals expressed in different amounts in individuals that can determine individuals or family groups. MUPs, major urinary proteins are examples. Feelings about siblings and kin. Found in urine. Piss. Mice have dozens of MUPs, we have a single pseudogene. Why can people get “pissed off”? Unless there is brain meat for urine sensitivity.

And family groups gets us to tribal behavior, your own kind as competitors. The feelings involved in our capitalist hellscape that pit us against one another. How migrants are characterized as “taking our jobs”, when supposed job creators love elimination of jobs when they can, moving them to other places if they can spend less. Or just get rid of other humans entirely.

There is the ability to detect other species as competitors. Smell if this or that kind of animal is present but not a predator. Think competing herbivores. The way bigots compare others to vermin like a nonconspecific competitor. Rats. Mix competitor and predator feelings and maybe you get the “deep state”, an attempt to define elected political opponents as threats.

There are chemicals in feces that activate the VMO too. Hints at processing of kinds of conspecifics and digestive status. Maybe that is why things can be “shitty”.

There are chemicals that activate the VMO related to infection too. Mice can detect sick conspecifics. The feelings about disease are rampant in bigotry. Think about the homophobes that need homosexuality to be more disease ridden and their language. Think about how the homeless, disabled, or mentally ill are often treated as untouchable. And people refrain from interacting. Or the use of disease applied to migrants. Disease feelings badly applied. Sensing and avoiding sick conspecifics requires Gαi2+ vomeronasal neurons. Weiss 2023.

Meat computer downstream from the VNO.

I first got interested in some of the following regions of the brain because they are relevant to tourette’s syndrome (TS). There was a study of children and adults with TS looking at  the volume of the amygdala and hippocampus. Morphologic Features of the Amygdala and Hippocampus in Children and Adults With Tourette Syndrome. Peterson 2008

The short version is the regions I’m about to mention are larger in TS. And I point out that tics and urges are made of feelings and actions. Actions that can be denied at the cost of increasing tension. Including mental actions, obsessions. In TS at least, but the phenomenon comes to us all when it is about what we feel strongly about.

Going back to the figure I made, the MOB and AOB are the main and accessory olfactory bulbs. This is where the olfactory neurons send their signal after binding an odorant. It looks like the location of chemical identity when I read about it. It’s what is downstream from the bulbs where things get interesting. Remember, humans don’t have an accessory olfactory bulb. But we have the downstream hardware and it’s fair to think of the vestigial imprint of the accessory olfactory system. Not strictly tied to male, female, offspring, parent etc, but based on it and more plastic, changeable in humans. A computational source of feelings in the meat computer that use and abuse in thought and language. Severed from olfaction by our evolution.

PMCo.

First there is the posterior cortical amygdala (PCo), which is subdivided into posteromedial (PMCo) and posterolateral (PLCo) sections. These regions are stereotyped as olfactory regions because they are primary olfactory cortex for the olfactory system. The AOB outputs to the PMCo (red) and the MOB outputs to the PLCo (green). We still have both brain regions, though they have lots of names in the history of brain science (superficial cortical region, sCLR…).

In mice these regions are necessary and sufficient to trigger innate feelings about positive and negative feeling odors like food or predator odor. Mice with no history with foxes will avoid this odor. Activation of these regions with various manipulations in locations can create attraction or avoidance to locations. Directly making a feeling without the smell. The participation of cortical amygdala in innate, odor-driven behavior. Root 2014

In mice the PMCo is involved in social long term memory formation. If a mouse is introduced to a food through another mouse it will strongly prefer this food. This is a process called Social transmission of food preference (STFP) by the paper. It even overrides innate preferences as mice innately prefer cocoa to cinnamon and STFP will override that. The cortical amygdala consolidates a socially transmitted long-term memory. Liu 2024.

Humans still have a PMCo. It’s hard to find information about it but a brain region used by our ancestors for feelings related to predators, food, prey and others of its own kind seems like a place that could still be used for the same feelings. In all their greatness and awfulness. While we no longer go sniffing others for information we senses used with those things.

What we have managed to discover in humans is that these regions are related to detection of emotions in facial expressions and language. Emotional faces, emotion and feeling in language. Selective processing of social stimuli in the superficial amygdala. Goossens 2009. Amygdala subregions differentially respond and rapidly adapt to threatening voices. Fruhholz 2013.

In case anyone is interested the PLCo seems to contain an approach-avoidance map along its rostral-caudal (“front” to “back” -ish) axis and is interconnected with the PMCo. Control of innate olfactory valence by segregated cortical amygdala circuits. Howe 2024. I wish they also checked the PMCo but they didn’t.

MEA.

The MEA is the medial nucleus of the amygdala. Where the posterior cortical amygdala seems to generate feelings, the MEA seems to generate actions. As I read about the amygdala and its subnuclei the MEA seemed to be about “interactions with other beings” as its activation and activity relates to attack, defense, mating, offspring care,… innately. Self-grooming too which might make it about the self as a being too.

It gets direct projections from both olfactory bulbs in mice, and of course lacks AOB projections in humans. Were your MEA stimulated you would feel a powerful urge to move. Development and function of the medial amygdala. Prakash 2025.

Where you have movement you have body maps. Anatomy connections. Powerful innate anatomy feelings are a potential biological substrate for profanity/vulgarity. While the MEA is about movement, the way these words are used are often very active “fuck off/fuck you” “don’t give a shit”, pissed off”, “don’t be a dick/pussy” (oh the gendered difference there!). “Full of shit” is qualitative, a feeling. If I tried “full of fuck” that’s action oriented. So is “full of piss and vinegar”.

I still have stuff to read about though because mere mentioning of someone’s “dick”, “ass”, “pussy”, or “tits” isn’t action oriented but creates a tension, a feeling. It’s just that actions require anatomy maps so this seems a potential place for anatomy feelings. Maybe not everything the MEA does is directly action oriented and it contains or connects to body maps somewhere, and connects to the posterior cortical amygdala (related to anatomy feelings via mating in the past and such in the past) that establish feelings in anatomy without actions. These regions are interconnected. Maybe there are anatomy maps in the PCo too, but mice seem to be choosing their actions via feelings there.

How do I end something like this? I feel like there is more to say but I’ve pretty much covered the things I wanted to. The neuroanatomy of cooties and cuss words. The vestigal accessory olfactory system and human feelings.

I’m working on a larger piece about the accessory olfactory system and part of it has me introspective to the point of avoidance of others. So I’m going to post about it to clear my thoughts.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: profanity and the profane. This isn’t about good or bad, but about what it is and the categories it falls in. There are good and bad things here though, oh yes.

I’ve been puzzling over language and symbolic sensitivity. I have a different relationship with intensity thanks to tourette’s syndrome and language isn’t spared. When one is always intense inside the perception of intensity in language gets confusing. I’ll go straight to profanity and technical language about genitals and excretion. It never bothers me, it’s the sensitivity to others that I seem sensitive to. That negative empathy overload. I remember as a child riding my bike and just spewing out lots of forbidden words, and my father just going “I don’t think so!” like that’s a mature approach to your child. No understanding, just forbidden. And to this day I think my parents are full of shit.

There is a set of things that fall under profane that are hard to think about but important because I want to know WHY. They aren’t all popularly understood as profanity. Profanity in my experience are words of anatomy and action: fuck, shit, dick, pussy, ass, piss…

But the profane goes beyond that. The reasonable sensitivity to burning crosses and swastikas. The obsession of bigots with disgust and disease, like a homophobe that needs gay people to be more disease ridden. Or the hand-wringing and squeamishness that technical terms for reproductive anatomy brings.

Gendered language can fall in here too given the negative feeling that can be created here.

I don’t have this. What I have is an acute sensitivity to the feelings of others here for better or worse. Maybe my privilege is why I don’t have an equivalent for burning crosses and swastikas for myself, and maybe not. But it’s real and I want to write about what looks like the potential biological substrate for these things.

Right now I’m doing searches on vomerants, semiochemicals “social chemicals” that organisms make and detetect in their accessory olfactory systems, including things for predators and prey, a system we don’t have. Hopefully I have something useful to type.